I have been blessed in my life to have crossed paths with many, many wonderful people. Whether its people that I spent alot of time with intertwined paths, or a quick jaunt, there are many people who I hold dearly. I might not speak to them often, but there is still a soft spot in my heart for them. I do think of them, and hope for their happiness and health.
Today, my heart is hurting for a friend from my high school days back in Plano. She went to another high school, and a different church congregation but we had mutual friend and would see each other every so often. I also had the pleasure of working with her for a time at a little restaurant. Now, years later, she has a darling little family with two little boys. But her 10 mnth old has been diagnosed with cancer. I personally dont have much experience with this, my own children, cancer, etc. But I can only imagine how much pain, heart ache, frustration, and confusion that she, and her family, are going through. But one thing that brings solace is that I know that she is a strong and amazing person. That she knows has a heart of gold and that she has amazing strength. That she has an understanding of the gospel of Christ, and a love for a Savior. But at the same time, it makes me want to send even more prayers her way. It makes me want to jump on a plane and race back to her and all those that I love and hug them, spend time with them, and just simply be there with them. Sadly, that is not feasable as the people that have a hold on my heart are all across the world. But please know, if you read this, that I think of you often, and pray for happiness and health for you and those you love.
While in High School, I was told that I 'just care too much, and that I need to stop'. I was really hurt by this, and remember the pain I felt the night I was told this, and the friend that consoled me through it. And I look back on this often. .... I dont know if 1) its possible to either care too much or to stop caring, or 2) that I want to change this. Sometimes I feel like there isnt enough caring in the world. Caring for oneself, caring for loved ones, and caring for those that you dont know. Caring and Compassion is not freely given, and I feel like the longer we go in a world not filled with compassion, the worst our world will get. Compassion breeds self-confidence, strength, integrity, happiness, honor, loyalty, and really the list can keep going.
Sadly, I know that there are a few people right now at this moment, that would be super confused by my last paragraph. That makes me sad in myself, and I know I need to do better.
