Its Time to Embrace It

Joy is the serious business of Heaven - CS Lewis

I think we forget this often. But we are SUPPOSE to be happy. There have been times that I even feel like I need to hide my happiness simply because I dont want people to think that I take life to cavalier.

Life is hard. Decisions are always there to be made. Situations are to be survived. Relationships to be learned and maneuvered. Yes, Life is hard. But I choose to be happy. I choose to laugh at the simple things around me. I choose to try my hardest to make those around me smile. (And I must say, that can be a feat here in New York!)

Sometimes I forget that this is a choice. (Yes, some might feel like there is more to it than a choice, and I understand that also.) And then I remember my life in Boston, and how miserable I was. (Between my job and the stress and overloaded plate of responsibility, and that a good portion of my friends had moved away, and I was living alone, and that it was a blizzard ever other week. Not horrible, but just rather harder than it really felt like it needed to be.) And I remember that feeling that Heavenly Father put in my soul that here is a chance to choose happiness.

As CS Lewis wrote, Im sure that these words just might be from our Heavenly Father too: "You do not look so happy as I made you to be."

Today. I choose happiness.

Filter Needed

I need a filter. I would say that mine is no longer working, but has it ever really worked?! I though that I was getting better, but after this weekend, I really need to just stop talking. I have embarassed myself enough lately.

"This is XX, I used to babysitter her." - Really, Was that how I needed to introduce someone? No, all I had to say was that we were in the same home ward. Or even, her Mom was my Young Womens Leader that I loved and adored.

"I would drive from Provo to Ogden to get my hair cut." - Really Lisa? Were we talking about hair cuts, Provo, or Ogden, or driving in Utah. No, not at all. We were talking about growing up in Centerville!

"Oh, How is XX doing these days? Is she pregnant yet?" Really Lisa? Just stop while you are ahead.

If these conversations sound familiar and you are actually reading this, (I dont think you do, and therefore feel comfortable to post this, but who knows!) I just want to apologize for the randomness that comes out of my mouth. I hope that you can forgive me. . . . Im working on it. Not sure exactly sure how, besides just not talking. So, if you have any suggestions, than Im all ears.

The Deep End

"Its what we do in the worst of times that tells the world who we are." ~ The Deep End

I know. I, too, was amazed to hear this little gem in the new tv show The Deep End, which I think I will be enjoying this season. But the more I think about it, the more it really resonates with me. We can be good people when life is going well, and it seems like everything is going our way. But its really what we do when we feel like life is stacked against us, when work is the arch-nemesis, when finances arent our friend, and/or when the people we love the most dont show is the same love and respect. Its then when we tell the world who we are.

All I Can Think About

Dont Hear It Enough

"I always give God the glory. I never question things. God is in control of my life, and if nothing else, I know I'm standing on the rock." - Colt McCoy

I dont really follow football. I do love watching college ball, but it is on because of someone else. Now that facebook tends to be my mode of gathering news (sadly, I know), I couldnt help but read all the comments from fans about the disappointment in the game. But I have to say, Im alittle shocked to read his words. And I wish that those were my thoughts more often than they arent. I could just feel of his sincerity and his devotion to God. It makes my faith just alittle bit stornger to know that there are others out there.